Tuesday, 16 August 2016

The ups and downs of my relationship

Every relationship will facing a different kind of problem which is never crossed our mind and mine was terribly terrible. After I graduated from school, I kinda feel a lil bit free about my life. In January I went back to the Island, while waiting for my result and this is the phase where all the problem begins. 

At one point, I kinda like with someone which now I feel like I don't even want to know him and I feel so regret. It was the biggest mistake I've ever did in my entire life, being with someone that trying to take advantage on me was a big mistake. In early march, the guy that I used to like, message me and I kind of influenced with all his fake kindness and his sweet words. This is the time I kind of lost my interest towards my boyfriend. But, it wasn't 100% my mistake my boyfriend also made a mistake where he is so busy with works and stuff like that until at one point on April 7th was my birthday and my boyfriend is the one who didn't wish me and he was the last person who wished my birthday. And at late night 7th of April he did wish my birthday but still I'm still disappointed, angry and all kind of feeling mix in myself. From that moment, my hated towards my boyfriend getting stronger until I made a stupid decision to break up with him. And then there it goes everything. In the middle of April I got and offered to go to interview for Masscom and the first person I told about my interview was still my boyfriend and I don't even know why. Haha. 

While we broke up, my boyfriend still hoping for us to getback, like his words was 'If you go on a vacation with me, I paid for you' , stuff something like that, and obviously it wasn't true pun. I know my boyfriend will laugh at this point. Sorry loves :P And did you guys know ? I am so jealous with every stupid girls my boyfriend closed and hangout with. Like wtf, I am not his girlfriend, yet I'm so jealous until I cried when I saw his picture with other girl, while I was the one who asked us to break up.  *sigh* I know I'm weird. When I went to JB with my mom and brother for my interview, I told my boyfriend, 'Jom jumpa, mama ajak jalan and makan' padahal , I was the one yang ajak and I want to see him. When I was in Cotton On, finally he showed himself up and I have a same perceptions to him like 'I love this guy, but we broke up', when I saw him I feel like we're still a couple. It doesn't feel different than when I saw him while we still together. And our relationship goes on just like that because of our both ego. *heh* When I was in the car, he said he'll love me, he will give me happiness but I have to throw all my stupid life. But, I refused that and I don't know why :(

At the end of May, We started to talk again. When I was accepted for my interview to continue my study, I told him about it. This is the point where we start all over again, but still as a friend. Before I went study we message a lot like everyday. We talked like when we started to be with each other 5 years back. We talked a lot and he gave me a lot of advice for my studies. I know he still loved me. I can see that he changed a lot, and I'm so proud of him. After my orientation, I can go home then I asked him to fetch me and send me home. This is our second met after the one in JB. We miss each other. Seeing each other bring us the old memories and I'm so happy to see him. But still, our ego were as high as a mountain! But he did said he love me, he will do anything for me, he wants me back, then I told him give me some little time. Then I told him at the end of Ramadhan like 3 or 4 days before Raya that I accept the offered of us being together again. 

There you goes the story of our relationship, which we call that as a comeback . haha. But, he so different now and I am so proud of him. He prove his love towards me. Trust me guy please get rid of your ego because it'll ruin your relationship. I wish everything will smoothly went well and he will stay sweet, care and loved me. I hope it won't fade away. Thank you for all of your kindness and love and also thank you for being the most patient man. I hope it will last forever. hehe. Ameen

"You are one of the best and greatest gift, Allah has ever granted me with, Zulhelmi"

Tuesday, 11 November 2014

Dear Zulhelmi,

Hi I know I rarely writing to you awkwardly like this, since we're to busy with our study growing up to fast just like the shooting star goes down. I'm not writing you to apologizes or begging for something. I just feel like I want to write something for you. It's so hard for me to talk to you directly, I have no confident to do that. This is kind of appreciation post. I don't know what to call it.

Sometimes, I feel like I have no one with me, but then I conscious that I have you. We may lives hundred miles apart but our heart as close as the sea to the sand which is no distance separate. The day you promise to take me as your girlfriends is the day I started to vow to love you no matter what happens.  Even if we are fighting about stupid things we will always find a way back to each other. We have that effort which make us stay and stick together till now. You may not show your love to me, but deep in your heart you are trying so hard to make me happy and to give me happines and sometimes to show your love even in a small things you did. I appreciate every single thing you did to me. Even sometime I act like I don't, but in my heart you are just all I need.

On this day Tuesday, 11.11.14, 10:46 PM I vow to love you as long as I'm alive. I vow to take care of you. I vow to will always be with you through thick and thin together just like how we did. I vow to give you all I am , to give all my happiness, to give you support in every thing you will do and lastly I vow to remind you that I love you forever if you about to forget everything we've through together.

Sunday, 31 August 2014

All I want // Kodaline

All I want is nothing more.To hear you knocking at my door. 'Cause if I could see your face once more. I could die a happy man I'm sure. When you said your last goodbye. I died a little bit inside. Ilay in tears in bed all night. Alone without you by my side. But if you loved me, Why'd you leave me?, Take my body, Take my body. All I want is, And all I need is To find somebody. I'll find somebody like you. So you brought out the best of me,
A part of me I've never seen. You took my soul and wiped it clean. Our love was made for movie screens.

All I want is nothing much , show your love, respect, trust and the most important thing is loyal. 

Sunday, 24 August 2014

Camera roll

Country garden , Johor Bharu with them. 

Anniversary suprise.